Momentos de ternura

Quiero pedirle a mi mente que archive bien los recuerdos de esta mañana,

pues indudablemente serán nublados con el tiempo y las nuevas memorias que de ti vendrán.

¿Cómo encapsular en un instante la ternura de tu carita bajo la luz rosada del amanecer

que se percolaba por la ventana?

Tenías la diadema de las orejitas de Shrek puesta, pero tapándote los ojos. Así que no viste

que había entrado al cuarto.

¿Cómo embotellar y preservar para siempre la expresión de sorpresa y alegría 

cuando me viste sentada junto a ti en tu camita? 

Hoy estabas tan feliz que hasta me dejaste hacerte un moñito, ¡lo lindo que te queda de lado! 

Luego los besitos ricos en la espalda, mientras sentía tus suaves pelitos de lana acariciar mis cachetes. 

Escogiste tu ropa: el trajesito blanco con bolitas de colores. 

También quisiste las medias azules, antes de ponerte tus chanclitas fuchsias y anaranjadas, ¡qué combinación! Aún así, te veías hermosa. 

Tu carita y ojitos se iluminaron cuando encontraste tu peluchito que ora, 

y bailabas alegre cada vez que oprimías el botón, repitiendo siempre el último amén 

con una dulzura que Dios en el cielo gozoso recibió.

Al momento de bajar las escaleras, todo tu séquito de peluches y sábanas querías traer. 

Pero mamá, llévalo tú porque me puedo caer. 

Quisiera que mi mente fuera una cámara digital con memoria ilimitada, 

para recordar cada segundo, cada mirada. 

Que la vida se detuviera más a menudo para simplemente poder olerte, cargarte y añoñarte, 

jugando peekabú entre las sábanas blancas. 

Eres alegría indescriptible, 

ternura inigualable.

English version

I want to ask my mind to safely archive this morning's memories, 

since undoubtedly they will be clouded with time and the new memories of you that will come.

How can I capture in an instant the tenderness of your face under the soft pink light of the morning

as it permeated through the window?

You were wearing the Shrek-ears headband, but covering your eyes. 

So you did not realize I had entered the room.

How do I bottle and preserve forever the expression of surprise and happiness

when you saw me sitting next to you on your bed?

Today you were so happy you even let me put your hair in a ponytail, they look so cute on you to the side!

Then the sweet kisses on your back, as your tiny hairs caressed my cheeks.

You picked out your outfit: the white dress with the multi-colored polka dots. 

You also chose the blue socks, before putting on your fuchsia and orange sandals, what a combination!

Still, you looked beautiful.

Your face and eyes lit up when you found your stuffed animal that prays,

and you danced happily each time you pressed the button,

always repeating the last amen

with a sweetness that God in heaven joyfully received. 

When it was time to go down the stairs, you wanted to bring your entourage of stuffed animals

and blankets. But mom, you carry them or I might fall.

I'd like my mind to be a digital camera with unlimited memory, 

to remember every second, every look.

That life would slow down more often so I could simply smell you, carry you, cuddle you,

playing peek-a-boo under the white sheets.

You are indescribable happiness,

incomparable tenderness.

Attitudes

I just got back from an audition that reminded me of a tough lesson I need to keep learning: it's all about our attitudes. I keep thinking about how my audition should have gone differently and conclude that the main problem was my pessimistic attitude! Instead of having a positive mindset, I immediately told a friend present how much I "hated" these type of cattle-call auditions. Bam! Negative. Had I opted for another approach at the situation, I'm sure I would have been happier with my performance.

It's no use driving myself crazy over this now either, but I want to take this opportunity to talk to you about our attitudes, even in the seemingly less-essential things in life. Paul wrote that a perfect man is capable of refraining his tongue... and that goes even deeper, down into your heart and mind, before it heads out your lips. This learning to refrain and control our thoughts takes practice and going through experiences like the one I had today.

Face life with a positive attitude!

My desire is to be the type of person that infuses others with positive energy, especially my children. I want you to learn to visualize what you want your experiences to be like and then strive to make that idea a reality. For example, I could have thought to myself: "There are many people here (at the audition), but what is the client looking for? What does that look like in my audition? Is it a lot of smiling, energy, excitement?" As I do this, I see myself playing the part, and I start smiling. My confidence is boosted and I'm ready to roll. When the first thing I do is complain, I can only spiral down because I immediately undermine my efforts and boycott myself.

Whatever the situation, always try to keep a positive attitude. Don't make excuses for your behavior, the only place an excuse can take you is backwards. Accept responsibility for what you can control and decide to have a winning attitude. So, I'm going to rock my next audition tomorrow!

...the only place an excuse can take you is backwards.

Update a few days later (March 3)

I got the part! My attitude during the second audition was so different, I have no doubt it was key in getting booked. Stay positive, stay focused, go for it!